The In-Between

I had a major a-ha moment yesterday.

Yes, Oprah would be proud.

Wednesdays at the clinic can be tough. Multiple doctors. Numerous clients. Tons of phone calls. Emergencies that need to be squeezed in between regularly scheduled appointments. Barking dogs. Hissing cats. Biting. Scratching. Oh, and by the way, that ninety pound over-excited Lab needs an x-ray. But no sedation please.

Ugh.

So, needless to say, I do my absolute best to zone out as much as possible during my lunch hour. From one o'clock to two, I shut myself up in the break room and take advantage of the little peace and quiet I can get. To get away from the chaos - for even a short while - makes all the difference in the world.

Which brings us to yesterday, and my a-ha moment. I was sitting in the break room, re-reading one of my Abraham-Hicks books, when - out of nowhere - came a bolt of lightning. A phrase in the book jumped out at me and knocked into my mind with such force that a flash of light literally went off in my brain. Pinwheels of ocular induced fireballs spiraled through my vision, and my breath caught in my throat. In fact, if that phrase had hands, it would have grabbed me by the shoulders and shook some much needed sense into me.

"... SENSATION OF CREATING YOUR OWN REALITY..."

Wow. Six little words. But so powerful.

For a lot of people, life is merely a series of blah moments interspersed with a little excitement here, a random moment of passion-filled intensity there... And, every once in a blue moon, some extreme micro-seconds of sheer happiness thrown in to spice things up. But just a bit.

I'm the first to admit that my life, upon arriving out here, has improved tenfold. And I certainly can't deny that relocating to the Seattle area has yielded some major benefits. Since moving out to the Pacific Northwest, I've experienced countless moments of joy-filled enthusiasm, hour after blessed hour of passion-filled excitement, and thousands upon thousands of micro-seconds of sheer happiness. It's truly been an amazing journey.

But still, even with all of those moments of unadulterated bliss swirling around me, I couldn't help but feel there was something missing. Some little tidbit that I was overlooking. Almost like a forgotten word left dangling, on the tip of my tongue. Waiting. Waiting. For that perfect moment of clarity.

The particular enlightenment that I was seeking - on a personal level - was lurking just up ahead. In plain sight but invisible.

Until yesterday.

"... recall the delicious nature of focusing upon the SENSATION OF CREATING YOUR OWN REALITY rather than giving so much attention to the REALITY THAT YOU ARE CREATING."
-- The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent, by Abraham-Hicks

There it is. My enlightenment.

So very basic. So very true. And so very simple.

In other words, have fun now. Love life now. And enjoy the present moment. Now. Don't wait until a certain object materializes or a much anticipated event unfolds before you allow yourself to be truly happy and discover your bliss.

Life is about the ride. About being happy all the time, not just sparadically. It's about the artistic endeavor that each and every one of us - by just being born - have chosen to partake in. To revel in. And to enjoy.

When I think back to any creative endeavor I've ever embarked upon, I remember the fun being in the actual creating. The coloring, the painting, the drawing, the writing, the reading, the editing... Sure, the end result was always great. A fantastic sight to behold. And definitely rewarding in its own way. But nothing could ever match that feeling of passion and enthusiasm that filled me up so completely during the creating process. That glorious feeling of all out, unbridled fun that coursed through me when I was up to my elbows in the project itself was what I relished. Covered in clay, paint, markers, ink, sweat... That was where the joy was. Where the excitement reigned. And where the true energy flowed.

Think back to any creative project that you've ever done. Didn't you, in the end, have more fun creating and playing with the art supplies than you did with the actual finished product? As a kid, when you colored in your coloring books, wasn't shading in the picture the best part? Wasn't that why, when you finished, you immediately turned to another page, grabbed a different color, and continued coloring?

That, I now realize, is what life is. It's the in-between moments that count. Those in-between moments of "blah" are actually where all of our creative power lies. Between manifestations is really where the fun is.

Before yesterday, I'd been too focused on the end result to see it. Too busy noticing the distance between where I was and where I really wanted to be. Too distracted by the absence of the manifestation to see what was really in front of me all the time - the gift of the in-between.

But now I see it. Now I understand. And now I'm up to my elbows in the creative process and loving every minute of it.

Life isn't about the end result. It's about the process. The joy that we allow (or don't allow) ourselves to feel while we're on this artistic journey.

Life is about the Sensation of Creation.


** Dehlia - enjoying the in-between... ;)


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"People will say, "Well, I have to work on my goals," or, "I have to work on my visualization." And we want you to think more about holding the vision because it is pleasurable to hold the vision, not because you're trying to make the vision work in order to get to some place that you're not now standing. "How much should I work?" We would say, work in the sense of joyously moving forward."
-- Abraham